Well..........
Here is biggest updateI HAVE BEEN CROWNED ONE OF THE NAM JR TEEN QUEENS OF VA!!!! other than that nothing new. I am getting ready for everything that it has in store for me. i am about to be a junior and i get my liscense in NOV ! Then I am going to be in my cousins wedding in October.! :) Nothing more than that :) still miss kayla and trey like crazy and still no where near getting to see them again..... :'(
August 10, 2011
July 15, 2011
Michael Eugene New Sr.
Two years ago today my father passed away. Unfortunetly, We weren't as close as I wish we would have been. He was the type of person who didnt show love normally..... he loved to play pranks or do something to get a rise out of someone. But he was one of the best Firefighters i know, one of the best racers i know. Lots has happened since his passing. Family has come together and some has fallen apart, but in the end(even though some of us dont wasnt to admit it) WE ARE ALL FAMILY! Daddy would want us to be happy and joke around with each other not like this. I love him and miss him more each day and i wonder what would've happened if that night he hadn't of gone to the hospital......I probably would have gone to his house like i was supposed to and fought with my stepmother like always. Then i would probably be there now complaining of how boring it is , and how i want to go home to mom. But if i could go back even for one day, i would change EVERYTHING. I would spend more time watching Matlock with him and less time on the phone/tv/computer...ETC.; i would stay up late playing war and slap jack instead of stubbornly going to bed early, i would wait till the absolute latest to go home and leave the absolute earliest to get there the next time. I would record EVERY SINGLE prank call and stupid joke..... Most importantly i would take more time with him, make more memories and even pay attention to his nonsense that he would ramble on about. Sometimes i wonder if it would've made a difference.
But i can not go back, no i most go forward that is what he would want: I need to graduate and make him proud of his little girl, I need to smile more and get mad less, i need to cherish the moments now before they are gone tomorrow, make amends with old enemies and make new friends, most importantly i need to always remember that my "home boy" is always watching over me and always has even if i didnt want to believe it before.
So REST IN PARADISE daddy <3 I love you and I hope Heaven is as great as it seems. Give everyone my love and know that i am proud to be you're daughter, and you're always going to be my hero.
With Love,
Your Baby Girl :)
But i can not go back, no i most go forward that is what he would want: I need to graduate and make him proud of his little girl, I need to smile more and get mad less, i need to cherish the moments now before they are gone tomorrow, make amends with old enemies and make new friends, most importantly i need to always remember that my "home boy" is always watching over me and always has even if i didnt want to believe it before.
So REST IN PARADISE daddy <3 I love you and I hope Heaven is as great as it seems. Give everyone my love and know that i am proud to be you're daughter, and you're always going to be my hero.
With Love,
Your Baby Girl :)
July 12, 2011
Rest in paradise Mr. Red & Mrs. Clara
There is so much going on right now i think i am going to get whiplash from the day to day changes. I cant accept the fact that everything happens for a reason but i know that if certain things didnt happen i wouldnt be here today. Some times i think that the grass is greener on the other side,what if it isnt ?
I havent posted in a while so let me catch up. I have a 4.0 gpa and i am on the principals list :) So far this summer: I have lost two loved ones, Been on a crazy but fun vacation, helped with my cousins amazing beach weddding , and gotten my pictures done for the pageant. (I hope to pick them up today or tomorrow )!! Oh... and i re-arranged my room/cleaned it :) !!!! I am about to start my last step in Driver's Ed and i am so excited. One thing and one thing alone has made me have hope this summer/year(well past couple of years) and it is My niece and nephew they are amazing children!
okay so now i am getting to the point of why i wanted to write today:
Mr. Red was my old babsitter's husband, he was one of the funniest guys i know, you could always count on him to make you laugh. But God needed him up there but the fact of the matter was we still wanted him down here. He was one of the best christians i know, he knew God had plan, there was a reason he had to have that awful thing called cancer. He fought hard but at the end he knew one way or another he was going HOME !
Rest In Paradise <3 I love you!!!
Mrs. Clara was my memaw's friend, but she was part of the family to me, I could count on it every third or fourth friday i would come home from school and the gang would be sitting at our kitchen table. Playing cards as usual. I would go around and hug everyone. Unfortunetly God needed her also, i remember the day she got sick. I went to see her after she got home from the hospital, and anyone who saw her knew she was a women of God. She would tell you all day long "PRAISE THE LORD PRAISE THE LORD". She would scream as loud as she could , at the top of her lungs. It hurt my ears then but always made me laugh. She definetly had the Holy Spirit in her , she told me she could see if someone was a christian in their heart, i still believe to this day she could. I will miss her dearly ......but i will always have the memory of her sitting in her chair playing cards, and at home screaming .....Praise the lord.....Praise the lord. She is HOME now and having lots of fun :)
Rest In Paradise <3 I love you !
I havent posted in a while so let me catch up. I have a 4.0 gpa and i am on the principals list :) So far this summer: I have lost two loved ones, Been on a crazy but fun vacation, helped with my cousins amazing beach weddding , and gotten my pictures done for the pageant. (I hope to pick them up today or tomorrow )!! Oh... and i re-arranged my room/cleaned it :) !!!! I am about to start my last step in Driver's Ed and i am so excited. One thing and one thing alone has made me have hope this summer/year(well past couple of years) and it is My niece and nephew they are amazing children!
okay so now i am getting to the point of why i wanted to write today:
Mr. Red was my old babsitter's husband, he was one of the funniest guys i know, you could always count on him to make you laugh. But God needed him up there but the fact of the matter was we still wanted him down here. He was one of the best christians i know, he knew God had plan, there was a reason he had to have that awful thing called cancer. He fought hard but at the end he knew one way or another he was going HOME !
Rest In Paradise <3 I love you!!!
Mrs. Clara was my memaw's friend, but she was part of the family to me, I could count on it every third or fourth friday i would come home from school and the gang would be sitting at our kitchen table. Playing cards as usual. I would go around and hug everyone. Unfortunetly God needed her also, i remember the day she got sick. I went to see her after she got home from the hospital, and anyone who saw her knew she was a women of God. She would tell you all day long "PRAISE THE LORD PRAISE THE LORD". She would scream as loud as she could , at the top of her lungs. It hurt my ears then but always made me laugh. She definetly had the Holy Spirit in her , she told me she could see if someone was a christian in their heart, i still believe to this day she could. I will miss her dearly ......but i will always have the memory of her sitting in her chair playing cards, and at home screaming .....Praise the lord.....Praise the lord. She is HOME now and having lots of fun :)
Rest In Paradise <3 I love you !
April 23, 2011
A New Angel in Heaven
Some of you have heard about the tragic accident on April 21, God called home a sweet angel ! It has made me take driving so much more serious because Kelly was a sweet girl who I wasn't able to get to know. I wish I could have. From what I am hearing she was just like her big sis Katy.(who is one of the sweetest girls I have ever met)! I don't have to much to say except that if someone is out there reading this pray for their family! A loss of a child/sibling is terrible, God has a plan but it is mysterious to us but he knows he needed her. I believe with all my heart that she is up in Heaven watching us all! The good die young but it never feels just right. Like I said I really didn't know her but I can't get her or her family off my mind or prayers <3 Happy almost Easter and Kelly shine some Sun from your beautiful smile on your loved ones who miss you !
January 29, 2011
Reading in Bed
This weekend has definetly been diferent as in the way i have been thinking. When i need to vent i have people i can trust to run to and cry, scream, hit, etc. if i needed them. Some people do not have that and need someone to just say "I am here if you ever need me!" Then again you may think that oh they know i am here, well saying from previous expereience, it is so much more reassuring to know that someone is there and will be there whenever. Sometimes you may need to just sit there and let them cry, or you may need to talk it out with them. No matter what it is such a precious thing to have someone who cares.
I am lucky that i have a big family who cares, most of my support comes from them. But i also know that sometimes family can be the most hurtful. No matter what you may ever think, someone will always be there to help you. Wheither it be a parent , family member, or just a buddy that is there and willling to care......but know no matter what i believe you can talk to God about anything. Nothing is too simple or too much to talk about with him... he has been through it all (a couple times). In a way i am not trying to preach, but in the bible it says "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten son. So that we may not perish but live in eternal life..." John 3:16. How can that not show you that you always have someone? Even if you cant see them they are there. I still talk to my grandparents,aunts/uncles, and many other family/friends (ones who have passed). Sometimes i even talk to my dad, him and i didnt get along when he was alive and i regret that everyday of my life. i thank god for him and my family as much as i can, because i do not know how much time i have left here.
I know i got off subject a little but, i do have a point i promise. When we are young most of us have a fairy tale in mind ( am i wrong). I, of course, dreamed of growing up with the dad who would have his gun out to meet my boyfriends, a mom who was my bestfriend :) ( and i do have that part), a big brother who would annoy me but at the same time protect me from it all. For a short time i had some of that. Till i lost my dad and with that my half-brother started more and more to leave me . That just killed me and makes me wonder what i could have done to pro-long it. i know it sounds dumb, but i believe there is nothing i can do or could have done. I had the brother who told me that if i ever needed someone he was a phone call away. I can not express how much that used to ease my mind. having someone there to help us achieve a little bit of our dreams is something EVERYONE NEEDS.
Ok i am done lecturing for the night, maybe i don t know yet. I hope this helps (if anyone is actually reading I AM HERE IF YA NEED ME ;})
I am lucky that i have a big family who cares, most of my support comes from them. But i also know that sometimes family can be the most hurtful. No matter what you may ever think, someone will always be there to help you. Wheither it be a parent , family member, or just a buddy that is there and willling to care......but know no matter what i believe you can talk to God about anything. Nothing is too simple or too much to talk about with him... he has been through it all (a couple times). In a way i am not trying to preach, but in the bible it says "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten son. So that we may not perish but live in eternal life..." John 3:16. How can that not show you that you always have someone? Even if you cant see them they are there. I still talk to my grandparents,aunts/uncles, and many other family/friends (ones who have passed). Sometimes i even talk to my dad, him and i didnt get along when he was alive and i regret that everyday of my life. i thank god for him and my family as much as i can, because i do not know how much time i have left here.
I know i got off subject a little but, i do have a point i promise. When we are young most of us have a fairy tale in mind ( am i wrong). I, of course, dreamed of growing up with the dad who would have his gun out to meet my boyfriends, a mom who was my bestfriend :) ( and i do have that part), a big brother who would annoy me but at the same time protect me from it all. For a short time i had some of that. Till i lost my dad and with that my half-brother started more and more to leave me . That just killed me and makes me wonder what i could have done to pro-long it. i know it sounds dumb, but i believe there is nothing i can do or could have done. I had the brother who told me that if i ever needed someone he was a phone call away. I can not express how much that used to ease my mind. having someone there to help us achieve a little bit of our dreams is something EVERYONE NEEDS.
Ok i am done lecturing for the night, maybe i don t know yet. I hope this helps (if anyone is actually reading I AM HERE IF YA NEED ME ;})
November 2, 2010
Millions of Stars(he is my shinning star)
When I was writing this it was originally for a class report. I wanted to kind of steer away from dad and the kids because i always write about them. I really did try but some how it turned to him, I got through my reading but had to leave because the wife part really hit me hard! After that all i wanted to do was go home and sleep. This really hit home and showed me that i really lost my dad, no matter if he showed he cared or not. I have plenty of people to tell me he did :)
There are millions of stars in the sky
I see them all as I pass by,
all shinning really bright.
But you, you seem to light the night.
Protecting as I live life,
still wishing you would see me become a wife!
Love from far and near
After I lost you, I went through my biggest fear
Soon after I stopped crying
Still if I say, "I am fine."
I would be lying
All I can do is say a final goodbye, this is my last line
There are millions of stars in the sky
I see them all as I pass by,
all shinning really bright.
But you, you seem to light the night.
Protecting as I live life,
still wishing you would see me become a wife!
Love from far and near
After I lost you, I went through my biggest fear
Soon after I stopped crying
Still if I say, "I am fine."
I would be lying
All I can do is say a final goodbye, this is my last line
October 11, 2010
Just a Dream
Blue skies, wild flowers
running through an open field
clear as can be.............UNTILL
I see him, were running
all things go blurring, i can't see
it all goes dark....
I am alone and all of a sudden i hear..
*music playing*"I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.Thinkin about us, what we gonna be? Open my eyes, yeah; it was only.. just a dream "
so i get up and keep going because
it was all just a beautiful dream..
..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N6O2ncUKvlg
running through an open field
clear as can be.............UNTILL
I see him, were running
all things go blurring, i can't see
it all goes dark....
I am alone and all of a sudden i hear..
*music playing*"I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.Thinkin about us, what we gonna be? Open my eyes, yeah; it was only.. just a dream "
so i get up and keep going because
it was all just a beautiful dream..
..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N6O2ncUKvlg
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