Two years ago today my father passed away. Unfortunetly, We weren't as close as I wish we would have been. He was the type of person who didnt show love normally..... he loved to play pranks or do something to get a rise out of someone. But he was one of the best Firefighters i know, one of the best racers i know. Lots has happened since his passing. Family has come together and some has fallen apart, but in the end(even though some of us dont wasnt to admit it) WE ARE ALL FAMILY! Daddy would want us to be happy and joke around with each other not like this. I love him and miss him more each day and i wonder what would've happened if that night he hadn't of gone to the hospital......I probably would have gone to his house like i was supposed to and fought with my stepmother like always. Then i would probably be there now complaining of how boring it is , and how i want to go home to mom. But if i could go back even for one day, i would change EVERYTHING. I would spend more time watching Matlock with him and less time on the phone/tv/computer...ETC.; i would stay up late playing war and slap jack instead of stubbornly going to bed early, i would wait till the absolute latest to go home and leave the absolute earliest to get there the next time. I would record EVERY SINGLE prank call and stupid joke..... Most importantly i would take more time with him, make more memories and even pay attention to his nonsense that he would ramble on about. Sometimes i wonder if it would've made a difference.
But i can not go back, no i most go forward that is what he would want: I need to graduate and make him proud of his little girl, I need to smile more and get mad less, i need to cherish the moments now before they are gone tomorrow, make amends with old enemies and make new friends, most importantly i need to always remember that my "home boy" is always watching over me and always has even if i didnt want to believe it before.
So REST IN PARADISE daddy <3 I love you and I hope Heaven is as great as it seems. Give everyone my love and know that i am proud to be you're daughter, and you're always going to be my hero.
With Love,
Your Baby Girl :)
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