Two years ago today my father passed away. Unfortunetly, We weren't as close as I wish we would have been. He was the type of person who didnt show love normally..... he loved to play pranks or do something to get a rise out of someone. But he was one of the best Firefighters i know, one of the best racers i know. Lots has happened since his passing. Family has come together and some has fallen apart, but in the end(even though some of us dont wasnt to admit it) WE ARE ALL FAMILY! Daddy would want us to be happy and joke around with each other not like this. I love him and miss him more each day and i wonder what would've happened if that night he hadn't of gone to the hospital......I probably would have gone to his house like i was supposed to and fought with my stepmother like always. Then i would probably be there now complaining of how boring it is , and how i want to go home to mom. But if i could go back even for one day, i would change EVERYTHING. I would spend more time watching Matlock with him and less time on the phone/tv/computer...ETC.; i would stay up late playing war and slap jack instead of stubbornly going to bed early, i would wait till the absolute latest to go home and leave the absolute earliest to get there the next time. I would record EVERY SINGLE prank call and stupid joke..... Most importantly i would take more time with him, make more memories and even pay attention to his nonsense that he would ramble on about. Sometimes i wonder if it would've made a difference.
But i can not go back, no i most go forward that is what he would want: I need to graduate and make him proud of his little girl, I need to smile more and get mad less, i need to cherish the moments now before they are gone tomorrow, make amends with old enemies and make new friends, most importantly i need to always remember that my "home boy" is always watching over me and always has even if i didnt want to believe it before.
So REST IN PARADISE daddy <3 I love you and I hope Heaven is as great as it seems. Give everyone my love and know that i am proud to be you're daughter, and you're always going to be my hero.
With Love,
Your Baby Girl :)
July 15, 2011
July 12, 2011
Rest in paradise Mr. Red & Mrs. Clara
There is so much going on right now i think i am going to get whiplash from the day to day changes. I cant accept the fact that everything happens for a reason but i know that if certain things didnt happen i wouldnt be here today. Some times i think that the grass is greener on the other side,what if it isnt ?
I havent posted in a while so let me catch up. I have a 4.0 gpa and i am on the principals list :) So far this summer: I have lost two loved ones, Been on a crazy but fun vacation, helped with my cousins amazing beach weddding , and gotten my pictures done for the pageant. (I hope to pick them up today or tomorrow )!! Oh... and i re-arranged my room/cleaned it :) !!!! I am about to start my last step in Driver's Ed and i am so excited. One thing and one thing alone has made me have hope this summer/year(well past couple of years) and it is My niece and nephew they are amazing children!
okay so now i am getting to the point of why i wanted to write today:
Mr. Red was my old babsitter's husband, he was one of the funniest guys i know, you could always count on him to make you laugh. But God needed him up there but the fact of the matter was we still wanted him down here. He was one of the best christians i know, he knew God had plan, there was a reason he had to have that awful thing called cancer. He fought hard but at the end he knew one way or another he was going HOME !
Rest In Paradise <3 I love you!!!
Mrs. Clara was my memaw's friend, but she was part of the family to me, I could count on it every third or fourth friday i would come home from school and the gang would be sitting at our kitchen table. Playing cards as usual. I would go around and hug everyone. Unfortunetly God needed her also, i remember the day she got sick. I went to see her after she got home from the hospital, and anyone who saw her knew she was a women of God. She would tell you all day long "PRAISE THE LORD PRAISE THE LORD". She would scream as loud as she could , at the top of her lungs. It hurt my ears then but always made me laugh. She definetly had the Holy Spirit in her , she told me she could see if someone was a christian in their heart, i still believe to this day she could. I will miss her dearly ......but i will always have the memory of her sitting in her chair playing cards, and at home screaming .....Praise the lord.....Praise the lord. She is HOME now and having lots of fun :)
Rest In Paradise <3 I love you !
I havent posted in a while so let me catch up. I have a 4.0 gpa and i am on the principals list :) So far this summer: I have lost two loved ones, Been on a crazy but fun vacation, helped with my cousins amazing beach weddding , and gotten my pictures done for the pageant. (I hope to pick them up today or tomorrow )!! Oh... and i re-arranged my room/cleaned it :) !!!! I am about to start my last step in Driver's Ed and i am so excited. One thing and one thing alone has made me have hope this summer/year(well past couple of years) and it is My niece and nephew they are amazing children!
okay so now i am getting to the point of why i wanted to write today:
Mr. Red was my old babsitter's husband, he was one of the funniest guys i know, you could always count on him to make you laugh. But God needed him up there but the fact of the matter was we still wanted him down here. He was one of the best christians i know, he knew God had plan, there was a reason he had to have that awful thing called cancer. He fought hard but at the end he knew one way or another he was going HOME !
Rest In Paradise <3 I love you!!!
Mrs. Clara was my memaw's friend, but she was part of the family to me, I could count on it every third or fourth friday i would come home from school and the gang would be sitting at our kitchen table. Playing cards as usual. I would go around and hug everyone. Unfortunetly God needed her also, i remember the day she got sick. I went to see her after she got home from the hospital, and anyone who saw her knew she was a women of God. She would tell you all day long "PRAISE THE LORD PRAISE THE LORD". She would scream as loud as she could , at the top of her lungs. It hurt my ears then but always made me laugh. She definetly had the Holy Spirit in her , she told me she could see if someone was a christian in their heart, i still believe to this day she could. I will miss her dearly ......but i will always have the memory of her sitting in her chair playing cards, and at home screaming .....Praise the lord.....Praise the lord. She is HOME now and having lots of fun :)
Rest In Paradise <3 I love you !
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